Thinking of flowers in the rain...

It's starting to rain again and it fits my mood today. I'm in the waiting room...waiting to hear from the surgeon about my lovely friend, Yoli's, surgery.

Did everything go well? Will she be able to walk? Are there any complications? Did she have a heart attack? Did she have a stroke? Is she going to be okay?!?!

Aaah!

She's out of surgery, according to the volunteer, but the doctor has found it necessary to write his report first. Doesn't he know that I'm hardly breathing in anticipation?

So instead I'm trying to focus on flowers...on spring...on pretty colors...on beginnings... I took these photos last spring, when I was new to photography. I used Photoshop magic to play with the colors.

I'm really hoping that by this Spring, Yoli will have mostly recovered and she'll be able to enjoy a new beginning.

She is a wonderful gardener and I hope that she will be able to impart some of her knowledge to me, thought I'm mostly hopeless; )

Yoli is a very special woman. She just retired at the age of 67 from working at El Camino Hospital for 27 years! If her health had been more robust, she certainly would have kept working! She's that kind of person!

She has spent most of her life taking care of others in a kind and loving way, even when the other party didn't always deserve it. I think she deserves to enjoy what's left of her life. Don't you?

Loving the people around you.

Today an older friend of mine fell and broke her knee bone in half. She was lucky that her landlord was around, fixing things around the house. He helped her to the sofa and she waited while her son and I came to take her to the hospital.

It made me think how important it is to check in on our loved ones frequently, especially if they don't have capable family/friends living with them. I'm so happy she had someone to care for her in her time of distress.

She will be going into surgery at 7:30 am. Possibly because I'm a healthcare professional, I care about the reputation of the hospital. This particular hospital gets a rating of 1 out of 5...1 being the lowest score possible for orthopedic surgery...from the US World News & Report. They rate the hospitals yearly on their ability to give the right kind of care, technology, rate of customer satisfaction, rate of re-hospitalizations, infections, mistakes, etc. They are well known and accepted as the authority on the best hospitals in the U.S.

The heartache is that there is a hospital less than 45 minutes away that rates 16th best orthopedic unit in the nation. That means there's only 15 hospitals in all of the U.S. that are rated higher. It's the best in this area!

However, she didn't want to change hospitals. She settled in and she didn't want to bother anyone or be a hassling type of patient. So...my heart is heavy and I'm so anxious...I can't breathe!!

I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. I hope everything will be okay.

Passionate love encased in a flower...

This flower is so beautiful!! For some reason, it seems to explode with passion and love!

Perhaps this is the beginning of love...when you start to notice each other and passion begins to form.

In the beginning we can only see the outside beauty. Our sight is fuzzy, blurry, and soft through our "rosy colored glasses".

Yet how we long to see more!

As time passes, we begin to see the inner beauty of that love.

How we yearn to learn even more!

Then we begin to share that love with our other loved ones. Joining the special group of Lovers!

Finally, our love matures and we find that despite any minor imperfections, we're still passionately in love!


I hope everyone has a chance to experience this type of passionate and beautiful love!!

Writing your heart...isn't always easy...

I always thought that if I just write my heart, then things in my life would just right themselves. Yet my attempts to right my life has not yet succeeded. I can't believe that I'm still figuring my life out at the age of 37. I was sure that I would have things figured out by now. Well I guess the road is a little longer than I imagined.

Of course, I have yet to finish my "memoir". I know that the act of writing my personal stories will help me to heal, but it's much harder than I expected. It's been 15 years and I've written a few stories. Some of which I've shared. Many have encouraged me to finish writing them into a full fledged memoir and publish. Hopefully, I'll be able to do that soon.

Has anyone read a really good memoir recently? If so, please recommend them in the comments.

Have a wonderful day!!

Posting on this blog again...

I found out that my new blog looks funny as a web address...so I decided to post on this one again. I guess I'm trying to figure out what type of blog to do, since I haven't been writing in this one. But perhaps, I just need to write again.